Stranger by your side

Its amazing to feel happiness, but deep down inside you know its not going to last long. Few seconds later and the stranger comes back.

Excitement, joy, happiness, enthusiasm are things you watch people feel, but you know you can't. 

You look in the mirror and stare at yourself. Picturing other people and seeing yourself, wondering whats wrong. 

Crying for fear of never feeling so much again. 

Trying so hard to have it all back, but then falling to your knees in disappointment.

Pain and anger overcome you.

Unknown of why.

Unknown of how.

Unknown of this stranger ever leaving your side.

So you sit, and sit some more.

Hoping that one of these times, you're no longer sitting there.

You're out enjoying life once more.