Lifes Mysteries
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
a million tears….
to go through the feeling of having your whole life slipping through your fingers just to have that one person not even catch any of the pieces.
to trust with everything to the point your back is unprotected just to have a million stab wounds appear.
to love something just to have it slowly disappear.
to yell your lungs out just to end up never being heard.
to have every ounce of your human being wanting to just feel wanted for a second just to be ignored a million seconds.
to support and fight for something just to have it end with your own destruction.
and yet with all that said and done you keep jumping right back in again
to the point your on your knees wondering and asking to many things
just to have them answered and stand back on your feet
to
once
again
fall
to
pieces……..once again….
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
What do you do
What do you do when you cant live in peace cause of your past.
When every bad memory slashes through you like knives.
What do you do when you cant live in peace cause of the present.
When everything is jumbled up in a big mess and all you do is stress.
What do you do when you cant live in peace for fear of the future.
When everything is so unknown and the world seems like such a scary place alone.
Monday, February 3, 2014
Quietness
Two-sided
Your so two-sided
You ask for something---- its yours.
You want info-----its given
You want love---- you get it
You want understanding----- here you go
You want respect ----- now you are
etc.etc.etc.etc.
But heres the thing
For me
I ask for something ----- hell no
I want info ----- um why need it?
I want love ----- fake smiles all around
I want understanding ----- just blame thrown at me
I want respect ------- pshhh thats out the door
You'll never see the hurt it causes
The pain, aggravation, and distrust it causes.
So why say were the same.
Why say no ones treated differently.
When all you are
Is two-sided.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Two faced…..
They become to faced to you. When their with you its that person you know, but the moment they turn around their this new person that is a complete stranger. Ones with hidden lies and secrets.
You go over in your mind the conversations you've had and now think what was true, what was real?
Why the change? why the difference?
And while you just sit there……you wonder.
Will I ever know the truth?
or is all just hidden secrecy.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Crush. love . life….
Monday, January 13, 2014
"perfection"
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Stranger by your side
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
have something
If you gain understanding don't let it go.
If you fall in love don't fall out.
If you get faith don't doubt it.
If you get butterflies imbrace them.
If you gain a strong bond don't break it.
If you fight then fight to get over it.
If there's a bad time look back and realize there's more good times.
If you give them trust then realize they must be pretty special to receive that.
If you fullt give your heart then just be happy it has a loving home.
oh
and
yeah
.........
If yea like it then you shoulda put a ring on it ;)
Friday, December 13, 2013
light at the end of the tunnel.
Don't let go its finally truth.
Don't let go its finally understanding.
Don't let go its not over.
Don't let go there is some hope.
Don't let go there is a light.
Don't let go its no longer alone.
Don't let go for this is finally right...
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
suffering secrets
Something in your mind just isn't clicking.
This feeling of confusion just stays like a fog in your mind.
Just a few secrets cause all of it.
Not the simple secrets like "I took something from a store", or "you ate all the cookies for the charity".
Secrets that literally make you wonder if your mentally ill.
Lies that seem deeper then earths core.
No matter what their level of importance is, they still sit there haunting your thoughts.
Questions pop up like...has this effected my life....will I ever change....why....is it revenge for something that happened to me...
The questions never end but neither do the lies. They seem to never stop. They grow and grow to hide more and more.
And then realizing is this who you really are? A monster in dark.
And the one thing that holds you trapped in fear is the thought of, if this ever blows up what will there be left, what will change, what will happen, and will recovery and change ever be possibility.....
Monday, December 9, 2013
truth be told
Life isn't all bad.
One day of misery will become one day of perfection.
One lie will turn into one truth.
One heart break will turn into one love.
One death will become one birth.
One failure will soon be one success.
One tear will one day become one smile.
One rainy day will eventually be one sunny day.
One day of stress will one day be one day of peacefulness.
One day of poor will turn to one day of fortune.
One misunderstanding will turn to one lesson.
One care will equal one support.
One dream will be one hope.
But One belief will equal a million things.....
haha are they serious? ......
Everyone goes through the same difficulties, problems, situations, etc. in life. The only difference is all of those are happen differently in our lives. So yeah ok you say you something like " I had to deal with a smoking addiction for years, you don't know what that's like". My response " Ok, well I went through major anxiety disorder for years". Both of us went through a hard time. Both went through something that was controlling our life that we were fighting against. You cant tell me I don't know how a hard time like that feels.
Even when it comes to levels of difficulty or pain. Everyone's difficulty or pain levels differently. But that doesn't mean we all haven't felt those same levels.
Think through before you think you know better then someone else.
Your life is someone elses.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Lifes Mysteries
Seems like we get slapped with a lot. Once we think we understand something, it quickly changes. Once we think we have a problem under control, a new problem appears. Once you feel happy, something always steals that feeling away.
We spend hours and hours trying to find out how to stop all of it. There's two bad ways of that though. 1. most people take the easy way out of life, but never realize what they were feeling is now left on someone else. and 2. there really isn't anyway to stop the way life works. It was designed to be this way. We just have to learn to keep living with it.
It always seems like there's a million days of bad compared to good days. But it's cause we learn to dwell on the bad. The bad actually helps us fight for the good days. Cause those good days are totally worth anything bad day we have to go through.
Life is a test of our strengths and weaknesses. It just matters which one you want to choose.